Saturday, January 30, 2010

- jus 4 u v2.0 -


"Crazier" by Taylor Swift

I'd never gone with the wind
Just let it flow
Let it take me where it wants to go to
You open the door
There's so much more
I've never seen it before
I was trying to fly
But I couldn't find wings
But you came along and you changed everything

You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I am lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier

I've watched from a distance as you made life your own
Every sky was your own kind of blue
And I wanted to know how that would feel
And you made it so real
You showed me something that I couldn't see
You opened my eyes
And you made me believe

Baby you showed me what living is for
I don't wanna hide anymore
Oh oh

You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm fallin' and I am lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier
Crazier, crazier, crazier

- jus 4 u -


"The Way I Loved You" by Taylor Swift

He is sensible and so incredible
And all my single friends are jealous
He says everything I need to hear and it's like
I couldn't ask for anything better
He opens up my door and I get into his car
And he says you look beautiful tonight
And I feel perfectly fine

But I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
And it's 2am and I'm cursing your name
You're so in love that you act insane
that's the way I loved you
Breakin' down and coming undone
It's a roller coaster kinda rush
I never knew I could feel that much
that's the way I loved you

He respects my space
And never makes me wait
And he calls exactly when he says he will
He's close to my mother
Talks business with my father
He's charming and endearing
And I'm comfortable

But I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
And it's 2am and I'm cursing your name
You're so in love that you act insane
that's the way I loved you
Breakin' down and coming undone
It's a roller coaster kinda rush
I never knew I could feel that much
that's the way I loved you

He can't see the smile I'm faking
And my heart's not breaking
Cause I'm not feeling anything at all
And you were wild and crazy
Just so frustrating intoxicating
Complicated, got away by some mistake and now

I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
It's 2am and I'm cursing your name
I'm so in love that I acted insane
that's the way I loved you
Breaking down and coming undone
It's a roller coaster kinda rush
I never knew I could feel that much
that's the way I loved you





Thursday, January 28, 2010

- sy & ujian 1 -

memandangkn ujian bulanan 1 dicepatkn 3mggu.. sy btungkus lumus siapkn kertas soalan yg perlu dicetak seawl mungkin.. sy xmo tgesa2 nti.. klo ikot jdual, sy & pen. panitia kne wat soklan.. tp konon2 nye dia xde xperience.. sy la yg kne wat.. alasan bodo yg sy dgr lg.. & tetap akan dgr lg & lg wlpn dr mulut org yg bbeza.. pe dorg pkir sy tau sgt ke?? mmg sy totally xtau.. skurang2nye sy xtkut cbarn.. cube je wat, if slh mesti la ade org tlg tego @ btolkn..

beri alasan @ beralasan xslh.. tp jd slh bile digunakn dlm situasi yg slh.. ckp psal beri alasan ni, sy ckup pantang bile org beri alasan bodo yg x rasional lg x munasabah.. ish,ckup pntang.. sgt2 pntang bile dgr org bg alasan bodo lg bongok if tsepit dlm sesuatu situasi genting...

:contoh 1:
'keluarkan buku teks, nota & latihan X skg..'
'ckgu, buku sy hilang.. letak kt bwh meja smlm..'
'sy sruh kmu tgl buku bwh meja ka? tlg diri spjg waktu ni..'
-pdn muke sape suruh wat alasan bodo..

:contoh 2:
'mne buku latihan kmo?'
'tgl kt umah ckgu..'
'nk bg nenek kmu bca? bdiri'
-mmg sje cri psal ngan sy..

- sy gembire dlm duka -

akhirnya, sy dh siap wat kertas ujian bulanan m/pel Kimia... utk pertama kalinya sy brd dlm dilemma bebrp ari... 'mngalahkn menteri nk wat kputusn rasmi... mngalahkan ank dare yg dpt pinangan 2org skali gus...' wallahh... alahamdulillah, sy dh bjy mlepasi fasa dilemma tsebut...
KERTAS UJIAN BULANAN 1 KIMIA DH SIAP!! SY SGT LEGA!! TERAMAT SGT!!
sy msih sedey... ="( sb ade org wat sy sedey... dia ske2 bg keje.. tp bg keje spruh jln... cmne sy nk siapkn.. biol x org tu... ish33... mmg biol thp max la tu... wattdaaa....?? menci btol ade prasaan xbest cm skg ni... ati xtenang.. idop lg la xtenang...

mlm ni, sy dh kne start mrangka 'JADUAL HARIAN SY'.. sb sy tlalu dibebani byk keje n tanggungjwb.. so,ikot saranan slh sorg dr kwn sy.. sy perlu ade jdual sendiri spy xleka or asek bpoyo2... sy=bpoya2??.. erm,kne pkir blek kot... kne struggle.. dlm mse 2-3sem sy kne complete master in edu sy... haittt.... chiayokkkk!!!!

- sy penat & letih-

prsaan mrh mmbuak2.. sy pendam dlm2 diam2 nun kt lubuk ati.. ckp xserupa bikin.. mnyampah tgk muke.. bleh xpegi dr sini.. tlg jgn senang2 mtk tlg kt org, then tgl org tsebut tkontang kating sendiri..
'anda pkir anda dh ckup besa nk men arah2 org.. wey, sy punya keje len.. punya tnggungjwb len.. klo pkir diri tu dh bgus, wat la keje tu sendri.. walla wey,byk cantek kapla lutut anda..'

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

-sekolahku, syurgaku-

1 statement yg xbleh blah... dh msuk erm, 5bln kt sek ni... pahit maung jd ckgu kt cni byk mngajar sy... mcm2 yg dh sy blaja... lbey2 lg bile bhdpn dgn org len... sgt kne bhati2... spy xsaket kn ati org len... tp sy msih ragu2 dgn cara sy react dgn org len... sbb sy rse sy sgt la kasar, xpkir pe org rse & ikot ati sendiri... sy sgt byk bad side... ="(... 'mohon maaf kpd sume yg trase ati...sy rse bsalah...'

sy msih di sekolah... mnyiapkn keje2 yg perlu disiapkn... esk ari Khamis, spt besa... ia mjd ari yg sgt mmenatkn... penat thp mega... sy dh tbesa since jdual 1 lg... skg dh 3 jadual btukar... sy maseh dpt clas yg sgt pack ari Khamis... 'mmg dh tjodoh ngan ari Khamis tp bukn Kamis.. hahahaha...;>...'

sy mau pulang ke Pontian scepatnya... sy sgt ttekan... dh lme btol xblek sne... :(... sgt rindu... rindu sgt2...sy pom mseh bkire2 nk p tgk baby Arisa... dh besa agknye dia... msti dh pndai tsenyum... xlupe baby Aisyah... suda pndai ckp agk nye dia... msti sgt kecoh, becok... mmg dh ade gye jd bzbody bdk kecik tu... 'hrp2 dpt jmpe ke2-2nye weekend ni...haittt....'

erm... pjg plak sy mcatat arini... mmandangkn sy by idea plak ptg2 ni, sy tibe2 tpkir psal pengetua sy... alangkh sronok klo pengetua sy mjd lebih 'user-friendly'... dia xde la terok sgt... tp alangkh bhgianye idop spt dok kt hawaii... if dia jd lebey mesra pengguna spt yg sy nyatakn td... haitt... tu hrpn poyo sy... ="(...

:: SILE TENGOK BAWAH ::

-mayb ni muke sy if hrpn poyo sy tcapai...weehee...gedix sgguh-

-ckgu @ pendidik-


pg2 sy ade wktu dgn 3 Inovasi..
pg2 lg ati sy dh pns..
kelas bsepah2..
meja tunggang langgang..
lantai sgt kotor..
saket mte sy tgk..

ade tugasan yg kne diselesaikn..
jd amek kputusn xcite byk..
pggl students ikot register..
nk wat pndftran PMR 2010..

sblom pape, sy dh ingtkn mrk..
tgk dgr arahan sy shj..
jgn memandai isi form 2 sendiri..
tp nme pon students..
klo kte DGR, mmg xreti nk DGR
klo kte SENYAP, mmg xreti nk SENYAP
sgt saket ati..
tp sy tetap sabar..
org yg kuat mesti sabarnya kuat..

sblom kuar kelas td..
sy sound mrk kaw2 punyer..
"ada MATE Pandang..
ade TELIGA Dengar..
ade MULUT Diam.."




Sunday, January 24, 2010

..laki2 bhati tisu..



penah dgr cite laki2 bhati tisu??
wlpn pelik tp sy jmpe suda..
yg peliknye, dia slalu mention dia ni brutal lg macho..
tp hakikat yg xbleh nk ubah..
dia ade ati lembut cam tisu..
sudh tentu & smestinya..
xslh klo sy gelar or pgl dia..
..laki2 bhati tisu..
tntu2 nya kwn bek sy mrangkap skandel sy slamanye..
sgt bsetuju ngan statement ni..

KeNaPa Sy KaTa DiA bERhAtI tIsU??

:: sbb 1 ::
dia ni ske majok2 mtk kene pujuk..
kdg2 knon nk bg ujian kt sy..
sory ye...sy xreti a.k.a xske pujuk2 org..
leceh..memenatkn..buang karan..

:: sbb 2 ::
dia ni xbleh kne ujian minda sket..
mule la gubra..gelisah..gemuruh..xtentu psal..
yg lwk nye, dh slalu kne uji pom
stil bperangai bgitu..

:: sbb 3 ::
dia ni byk sgt bsentimental..kdg2 mlampau2 dr sy..
elemen sentimental kdg2 sbbkn dia cm pkir mcm2..
ala2 pompuan nye pmikiran..
kdg2 sy pkir..
agk2 nye kteorg ni dh ttuka gender kot..ish33..

:: sbb 4 ::
dia slalu sedey lebey sbb lame xjumpe..pelik kn??..
sbb sy lek2 je..kdg2 sbb dia ingt bru sy tpkir..
'eh, dh lme ghupenye xjmpe..'
klo dia xingtkn..mmg sumph xrse mende pom..

:: sbb 5 ::
dia cept btol tharu..klo ade pape yg pelik sy wat..
pdhal xde mende pom..
kdg2 tharu dia mlampau2..
cm best sgt je bnde sy wat tu..
wlau hakikatnye mende tu silly & simple..

oleh sbb yg sy senaraikn ni la..
dgn ske cite lg bgembire, sy istiharkn dia sbg..
..LaKi2 BeRhAtI tIsu..
nickname bru lg cute utk dia...


NOTAKAKI : sy ptut brehat sbnrnye...kapla pusing2...bdn mlyg2...=(

kapla ting tong


dh lme giller xup8 blog ni..
hmpir bsawang mungkin..
mmg tringin nk up8 tp byk cbrn & rintangn..
mbantut hasrt ati & keinginan sy..
gillerr windu sme ini blog..
wlpn blog bodo2 yg xde mkne..
tp bmkne wey wat sy..
hahahahahahahaha..

tbe2 tringt kt org kt umh..ayh & ummi..
mrk tggl be2 sje kt umh skg..
ank2 kt prantauan..ecehhh..poyo giller ayt sy..
sorg kt Kota Masai, bukn Kota London...
sorg nun kt PJ..sorg lg kt Merlimau..
ade sorg tu kt SMK DPB jerr...
ape yg penting weekdays mmg mrk be2 sje..
honeymoon utk ke-2 kali kot..sgt2 sweet...=)
tp riso gk kdg2..bile dorg be2 je kt umh..
'eleh..ayat cover bdk yg slalu homsick'

btol..sy riso..saket penin be2 je yg tau..
'huhuhuhu..sedey nye..=('

mggu ni dh msuk mggu ke-3 sy xblek umh...=(
sgt ttekan sbnrnye..tp dpt cover dgn macho skali..
wlpn ade 2,3detik yg mcbr thp k'macho'an sy..
ayyoo...xsabo nk tggu cuti pjg2 lme2..
bleh lepak2 kt umh lme2 ngan fmily sy..
owh..bilakah??


-sy & impian-


sejak 2 menjak sy tlalu eager utk mmiliki umh sendiri..
'suda punya cita2 utk miliki umh sendiri..'
'giller saving pom xde..brangan maukn sebuah umh'
'keinginan yg pelik lg mbingungkn'

kgum pd seni bina sesebuah umh yg dibina..
sy cuma mau umh cumil yg sgt simple..
bgaimana itu??
hahahahahahaha...(",)

-RUMAH IMPIAN SAYA-
sudah tentu hsil rekaan sendiri..
senang klo citarase diri sendiri...wahhh...
xske umah 2tingkat..so, mau umh setingkt sje..
mesti ade hlmn sendiri...ade kwsn lepak2 men2..
lgpn senang klo nk pakir kete..
mau ade pgar putih yg cute..xtnggi, xrendah..
ade pokok rendang blkg umh..
lengkap ngan buaian..sgt sweet..
wrna umh mesti ijau chantek sb sy ske warna ijau..
bumbung itam spy susah nk nmpk buruk..
msti ade bilik keje utk sy...lengkp serba serbi..
klo bleh ade mkmal mini utk wat eksperimen..
ade mini libary utk koleksi bku & journal yg sy ske..
living hall & dining hall biar besa..
tp dpur tu kecik pom xpe..hahahahaha..
ni la ciri2 umh idaman sy..weehee..(",)

sy kene kumpul duet dr skg..
mau beli tnh..kt area kg hlmn sy..
spy sy bleh wat umh idaman sy ni..
sy bdk kg..jd sy mau dok kt kg..
xske suasana bnda yg hiruk pikuk..saket kapla..
smoga impian sy tcpai..aminnn...

~till then~



Friday, January 22, 2010

akhirnya...


setelah bbrp ketika sy hnya mnelan air liur
tika mana tika bila
tgk org len ade kmudahan jalur lebar
kini...
akhirnya...
sy mampu mmilikinye..
wakaka...cm best sgt jer...
org len xpndang pom sbnrnye
tp sy amt2 bsyukur sbb suda punya 1..
mudah utk mlepaskn gian
yg makin parah
dari hari ke hari
mmg gian thp yg sgt dasyat..

dh nk msuk 3minggu sy btugas
sbg seorang guru di SMK Kota Masai 2
selama itu gk sy sering
mhadapi saat genting & cemas
lebih2 lg mlibatkan
kawalan kelas, tugas2 sampingan &
pkr yg remeh temeh..

sy mngajar Kimia utk kelas 4 Bijak
jd ckgu Sains utk kelas 3 Dedikasi & 3 Inovasi
sblom ni sy ajar 3 Harmoni gk..tp skg x lg
ckgu B.Melayu bg knak2 Peralihan A
ajar Pend. Sivik & Kenegaraan kt 4 Elit & 4 Inovasi
mmg mcabar & tercabar
lebih2 lg peel & prangai bdk2 ni
sgt la mgegar tiang kesabaran sy


~till then~

Sunday, January 3, 2010

-karya pendek-


dh lme gk entri ni dok tsadai..
kt dlm draft blog sy..
sy tau xtau nk start dri mane..
nk wat intro yg bombastik..
sy mmg dh lme nk post sumthing yg wow..
tp sy bukn sorg yg ade talent yg wow..
so, ni just suke2 & hsl keje poyo2 sy..

Aku di Sini
di sini aku berdiri

menatap wajah-wajah suci
mengharap simpati
merintih sepi

di sini aku masih berdiri
berharap moga ada yg mengerti
maksud kata hati

di sini aku masih lagi berdiri
meniti hari-hari sunyi
bersama wajah-wajah suci
mohon simpati
dengan rendah hati
moga ada yg sudi

~never knew i needed~


For the way you changed my plans
For being the perfect distraction
For the way you took the idea that I have
Of everything that I wanted to have
And made me see there was something missing

For the ending of my first begin
And for the rare and unexpected friend
For the way you're something that I never choose
But at the same time something I don't wanna lose
And never wanna be without ever again

You're the best thing I Never Knew I Needed
So when you were here I had no idea
You're the best thing I never knew I needed
So now it's so clear I need you here always

My accidental happily
The way you slime and how you comfort me
With your laughter
I must admit you were not a part of my book
But now if you open it up and take a look
You're the beginning and the end of every chapter

You're the best thing I never knew I needed
So when you were here I had no idea
You're the best thing I never knew I needed
So now it's so clear I need you here always

Who'd knew that I'd be here
So unexpectedly
Undeniably happy
Said with you right here, right here next to me

You're the best thing I never knew I needed
So when you were here I had no idea
You're the best thing I never knew I needed
So now it's so clear I need you here always
Now it's so clear I need you here always


~2 is better than 1~



I remember what you wore on our first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey
You know this could be something
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time, to figure out the best in my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one

I remember every look upon your face,
The way you roll your eyes, the way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
And finally now, believing

And maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time, to figure out the best in my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one

I remember what you wore on our first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey

Maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time, to figure out the best in my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking

Oooh I can't live without you
'Cause baby two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the best in my life
And I've figured out with all that's said and done
Two, is better than one

~hidup mesti terus~


lately, sy sgt stress lg penat mlampau..
mcm2 kne setle..
mcm2 kne ready..
mental, fizikal & rohani..
since 28hb Disember, sy ade meeting..
meeting yg mlarat till 500pm..
sgt xbleh blah..
slalu sy tpkir, perlu ke meeting bjam2..
tp inputnye tlalu ciput..
sbb nye otak penat bdn penat..
sesgguhnye thp ktepuan otak sy..
sgt melampau..

smlm tym diner ayah sy tnye soklan cepu emas..
'dh jd ckgu skg, pe yg along rse? susah? senang?'
mmg secara jujurnya..
sy xpenah tpikir kesusahn tugas ayah & umi..
skg bru sy phm..
ckgu bukn takat mngajar & mdidik ank bngsa..
byk lg keje2 pkeranian..
yg perlu dilaksanakn..
'haitt...klo mampu cm nk hire sorg s/u..'
tu kate2 sy kpd kwn2 sy..
klo diikutkn beban tugas..
mmg wajar seorg ckgu ade sorg s/u..
tp cm lwk plak kn???

environment kt sek, xseswai if setiap ckgu..
ade sorg s/u..
penoh plak kang sek..
hahahahahahaha...
pape pom ido mesti terus...


Saturday, January 2, 2010

babai 2009..hai 2010


2009...thn yg penuh suka duka..
time kaseh kwn2 yg slalu by my side..
korang mmg gerek wey..
SAYANG KAMU
ingtkn tym2 kritikal nk siapkn PSM..
study utk final exam utk final sem..
mcm2 kite lalui bsame2..
mmg xkn sy lupe smpai bile2..
yg plg manis, bile kte sme2 grad..
waaa..sgt mrindui saat2 tsebut..
2009...byk mngajar sy spt thn2 sbelum ni..
sy mau blaja & blaja lg..
utk mnempuhi hari2 mdtg..

alhamdulillah..sy bpeluang merasai thn bru lg..
stlh beberapa thn idop..
thn bru ni mrupakn
thn PERTAMA
sy mnyambutnye dgn title seorg Cikgu..
sgt teruja..tsgt2 teruja..
thn 2010 ni, byk yg bkl sy lalui
sy mrupakn Guru Tingkatan 3 Inovasi..
'hoyeah..hoyeah..'
dh start pungut yuran..
1st tym experience..
mmg kalut giller tp cbe sebaik mungkin..
time kaceh rkn skerja yg byk mbantu..
selain tu, sy gk Ketua Panitia Kimia..
'sile gelak tgolek2 klo mau'
sy tkulat2 bile tau kne pegang tugas tu..
sy nk pastikn sy setlekn keje dgn bek lg cmerlang..
lg 1 yg xmenahan, sy jgk tlibat dlm sukan..
jd Ketua Pengurus Rumah Sukan Hang Lekir..
sy mmg xbrape ske bab2 sukan..
'huhuhu...=( takut xbleh wat..'
tp sy anggp sume tngjwb ni, CABARAN 2010..
klo xcbe, cmne nk tau..
keKuatan & keLemahan kte sbg Cikgu..

sy skg di umh family di Pontian..
wlpn bru je 1mggu di Kota Masai..
sy pulang gk ke kg sbb..
mau celeb thn bru ngan family..
betapa poyo nye diri ni..
'gelak la kuat2..sy xkesah..'

NOTAKAKI : slmt thn bru kwn2..windu kmu..